... issues and tissues with a touch of the spicy from the spirit hag ...
i see dead people

it’s true. every day i talk to them. they serve me in stores. they deliver my mail. they read the news on tv. they’re everywhere. all of them. all dead. every last one. most of my friends have been dead for years. the only thing that seems to keep them from collapsing into a pile of dust is that they apparently don’t know yet.

scary, that.

before you write me off as some paranoid-delusional sceptic (you’d be half right), allow me to blow the dust off an issue that was somehow pushed into the corner of our lives early on ...

... you know, the one about living ?

that whole idea about life being a gift we should cherish ?

a gift we should use to make choices ?

that’s the one.

how do you use your gift ?

what choices are you making in your life ?

how much of your life is up to you ?

somehow life has become this pointless extra to the collection of stuff that “happens” to us every day. we don’t think about living, it’s just what we do.

it’s just what we HAVE to do to in service of the list of things we "need" for “survival”, ridiculously inflated though it is. we can’t help it, though. as a race, we have collectively forgotten what it is we were supposed to be “doing”.

we can think of nothing else to do but further “advance” our “advanced” thinking. we do things like attempt to “evolve” our populace to a point where we can colonize remote planets, without heed of the fact that we have fucked up royally not only with the planet we are on, but also with the majority of it’s divided, oppressed, terror-filled occupants.

this we call progress. this we call “success”.

what the world calls a “war” is just an endless repeat of the original argument of the soul: materialism versus spirituality. we never learn. we never will, it seems. the nightly horror movie we call “the news” is filled with atrocities so graphic and so frequent that their only effect now is a reinforcement of the numbness set over the world.

and yet we persist at any cost in “bettering” ourselves.

well done, humanity. you make me sick.

Comments
on Apr 06, 2004
If you are ever in Toronto, I suggest riding on the 34 bus, or the Steeles express. There you will find more dead people, than the amount of people buried under the white house. It's chilling to see so many people without an ounce of happiness on their face.
on Apr 06, 2004
Nice one!!!

Keep on keepin' on Mig... It's pointless trying to preach to people who aren't living... The best we can do is live our lives to the full and have as much fun as possible!!! can i count on you to do that???

Thanks for the offer as well in my blog... i laughed hysterically! You are a gem!

BAM!!!
on Apr 06, 2004
phanton, you captured exactly what i meant. they're living ... they're not alive.

and muggaz. thanks for stopping by, sweet pea. you may always count on me to live life to the full. i am far too old and cranky to ever change now. and you are welcome for the offer. i consider it my duty to entertain our guests with what we like to call "the experience". it involves consuming copious quantities of ahem, you know, that one thing, then visiting some large, fibreglass "tourist" object, (ie: enormous fibreglass prawn, 12 metre long banana, etc), inside which one may become lodged with several busloads of japanese tourists, often for some considerable time. it's either so awful or so funny that you fall over/ fall off/ fall out. and you don't even care. hehe. now, you can't get THAT in any tourist brochure, kemosabe
on Apr 06, 2004
Does this fibreglass tourist object have a name?

It's very important to give our companions names you know. We have one named Chilpk - that is Lithuanian for 'suck'

You have to be careful with those Japanese dudes... they have never had such an experience, and they get addicted very easy! I know a few exchange students who haven't wanted to go back because of the 'freedoms' we indulge ourselves in here in the land of Oz!

BAM!!!
on Apr 06, 2004
hey everyone, look @ me and muggaz being friends. aren't we cute. . hehe.

yes, mark, the object has a name. (so do i, for that matter. it is vanessa). to my absolute and unending horror, i live within navigable distance of "the big banana". and no, before you ask, i don't have the poor taste to live in coffs harbour. bleuch. (mecca of tastleless surfwear botiques and endless bloody banana capital of the world that it is).

but coffs harbour is within the distance that most visitors consider acceptable to drag me. the damn banana is constantly packed to bursting with japanese tourists. the camera-flash blindness alone is enough to disable one temporarily.

and yes, the japanese do have a particular type of ahem "cultural" innocence. they display this mixed reaction of horror and fascination at our activities in much the same way other people gawk at car accidents.

trippy.
on Apr 06, 2004
Yeah - i do make you look pretty cute huh

Pleased to make your aquintance Vanessa!

I have been to the BB before... 2 times actually... i was over it well into my first visit though, so i stayed in the car and read my book the second time!!!

BAM!!!
on Apr 06, 2004
franly, muggaz, pet, i think it looks like a giant yellow penis. but then, that may be my problem. hehe. anyway precious, plied with one of our "hindenbergs", you will be loving the banana. hard. promise. mig XX
on Sep 10, 2004
sorry. i'm trying to delete the 2nd comment and i'm making a mess ;(
on Sep 10, 2004
what the world calls a “war” is just an endless repeat of the original argument of the soul: materialism versus spirituality. we never learn. we never will, it seems. the nightly horror movie we call “the news” is filled with atrocities so graphic and so frequent that their only effect now is a reinforcement of the numbness set over the world.
Does this make you a girlie girlie? Aye, pathetic indeed that we now have to think of a sensitive man as a girlie-man, or a demure woman who finds mud wrestling repugnant simply doesn't get it.
on Sep 11, 2004
and yes, the japanese do have a particular type of ahem "cultural" innocence. they display this mixed reaction of horror and fascination at our activities in much the same way other people gawk at car accidents.


We get Japanese tourists, too, heading out to Death Valley.

I wanted to open up a souvenir shop to rent Western wear, so some Japanese guy could look at his wife and say "Rook...I'm John Rayne".
on Sep 11, 2004
I wanted to open up a souvenir shop to rent Western wear, so some Japanese guy could look at his wife and say "Rook...I'm John Rayne".


Oh my God, Gideon! That is the most hilarious thing I have ever heard!! I am laughing so hard I have tears! !!
on Sep 11, 2004

they're living ... they're not alive


I see that as existing versus living.  I see the people who are working 70 to 80 hours a week just to have a bigger house than what they can afford (my neighbor is like that- he is never home) as existing.  They spend all their time working for the one thing that they hardly ever experience.  I don't see how that makes their life any better.  You hear of all the people complaining about not having something, or not having a new something, but you hardly ever hear about somebody saying that they like what they already have.  Just like that saying: "Happiness isn't getting what you want.  It's wanting what you have."

on Sep 12, 2004
Does this make you a girlie girlie? Aye, pathetic indeed that we now have to think of a sensitive man as a girlie-man, or a demure woman who finds mud wrestling repugnant simply doesn't get it.


stevendedalus, i hope it doesn't make me a girlie girlie. that sort of stuff is too much like a second job to me . and i agree with you. i was heavily into a rant here !. the term 'girlie man' is an awful one, isn't it ?. that we have no other word for this mildly annoys me, actually. that term does neither sex any favours !.

I wanted to open up a souvenir shop to rent Western wear, so some Japanese guy could look at his wife and say "Rook...I'm John Rayne".


gideon, i like your style !. or should i say "i rike your style"

Oh my God, Gideon! That is the most hilarious thing I have ever heard!! I am laughing so hard I have tears!


texas wahine, i think gideon would be such a great dinner guest, don't you ?.


I see that as existing versus living. I see the people who are working 70 to 80 hours a week just to have a bigger house than what they can afford (my neighbor is like that- he is never home) as existing. They spend all their time working for the one thing that they hardly ever experience. I don't see how that makes their life any better


exactly, karma. and the more thay have, the less time they have for it and the harder they work for the upkeep. crazy.

You hear of all the people complaining about not having something, or not having a new something, but you hardly ever hear about somebody saying that they like what they already have.


true again. 'want' and 'need' are very confused nowadays. most of us may want things, but we don't really need anything.

Just like that saying: "Happiness isn't getting what you want. It's wanting what you have."


i believe this, karma. thanks for adding it

vanessa/mig XX
on Sep 12, 2004
I wish I had written this!

It sums up so concisely what I can spend pages and pages rambling about and never find my point!!

Thanks for finding it for me Vanessa!

Dyl xx